Two years ago today heaven gained an angel at 10:32 PM. So much has changed over these past two years, most of which I never saw happening. I gained a lot of people in my life as well as lost. And some of the ones I gained through everything have slowly drifted away. I know Noelle wouldn't have wanted that... She wouldn't have wanted people to act the way they've acted or think the way they've thought. Through the time she's been gone some people have made her proud while others I know have truly disappointed her. Some people act as if they were best friends with her when in fact they weren't Noelle would for sure be laughing about that.
Some of the people I gained in my life through the grieving have stuck around while others stuck around while they needed it and talk to me on "their time." Is that right? Hell no it isn't. By saying "oh we'll stick together through this" or "I'll always be there for you." That was all a lie. Some people now a days are just so fake. Like you come around when it's convenient for you... Well through that experience I am following my gut and now cutting you out of my life. You obviously don't wanna be a part of my life so why should I make an effort?
The one person who I met through this experience and actually stuck around through everything is Nadine. Yeah her and I have been through some rough patches where maybe we hated each other or weren't happy with the way the other was acting, but no matter what we stuck by each other and even after two years we can meet up and sit and talk for four hours about everything and anything that comes to mind. We can trust each other with anything. That's what a genuine and true friend is... Noelle was a good judge of character and I now know why Nadine was her best friend. She is a caring, huge hearted, spirited individual who takes everyone elses needs before hers. And I think that's why her and I get along so well, we are honestly a lot more a like than I even thought was possible. And meeting up with her yesterday was amazing, we were able to bring up memories we had with Noelle and just talk about her. We can't do that with many people so knowing we have each other for that is truly a blessing. And I am so proud of who Nadine has become, and I cannot wait to see where she goes in life.
So the lesson to be learned in that people come and go in life. Nothing is ever a constant. We can't get attached to something because in the blink of an eye it could be gone. You never know what the future holds. Just live in the moment..
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