Moving Forward.

Well it's been said that some things are just too good to be true...I guess that statement is 100% correct. Just when I feel like things are going great, they take a spiral turn downhill. I truly don't understand why things have to work this way. I guess it's just a way of life. Nothing lasts forever and nothings ever perfect. 

I'm hoping that one day I will find that one person who I can always count on and that person who wants to have a future with me as much as I want to with them. I want someone who respects me and accepts me for who I am. I want someone who loves me unconditionally. I want someone who is loyal and committed. And most of all I want someone who wants the same things as I do. Oh and someone who cares about Bentley as much as I do and will care for him as if he was their own.

Who knows if this person actually exists because I have yet to find him. I have yet to find someone who will tell me things because they mean it and not because they think it's what I want to hear. 

I have learned the hard way that opening up to people isn't easy and usually when I do, I get hurt. So from this point on I'm not opening myself up to anyone else until I know for a fact it's meant to be. I am tired of getting hurt, I just want to find that special person who I can spend the rest of my life with and start a family with. Is that possible? I honestly don't even know.

All I know is that when all else fails I have Bentley who loves me unconditionally and always knows how to brighten my day. He's my baby and I honestly don't know what i'd do without him. 

So now it's time to focus on school as well as myself. We'll see what happens, I can't focus on what's already happened cause I can't change it and I can't focus on the future because it hasn't happened yet. I have to focus on this moment right now and make the best out of everything. As I always say "everything happens for a reason" I may not know what it is now, but eventually i'll find out and be thankful about all that's happened.

So lesson learned, don't wear your heart on your sleeve, and things don't always go the way you want them to. Just let life take its course. Don't let anything bring you down because something great is always around the corner.